May 14, 2017

May 14, 2017

Posted in Personal tagged , , , at 9:44 pm by gruundehn

For those for which it applies: Happy Mothers’ Day. I am not a mother and mine died 25 years ago but I can still wish mothers everywhere to be happy.

I overslept today and missed church. My sleeping, even when I get a fairly decent night’s sleep, isn’t great. I am always tired and wanting to take a nap. My VA doctor prescribed iron pills for anemia but I don’t think they are working. At least, if they are, it is extremely slowly.

I have put a couple of hours into HIGH TREASON today. And once this is done, I will do a couple of more hours into it. At least I am not doing a lot of thinking about the UPSET series of short stories to the detriment of the Elder stories.

Gaming yesterday was interesting and it was, to a small degree, fun. I am reaching the point where the fun of being with the group will not overcome my dislike, even hatred, of the D&D system. I may go for another year, two at the most, before I either play another system or leave the group. I don’t even care for the characters I play enough to read the rules system unless I have to.

With my moving as I have had to do, my voter registration is messed up. I got a note yesterday concerning that. I will have to hunt down the city election department tomorrow and vote because Tucson has gone to the unsecure vote-by-mail system and I never got a ballot in time. Last city election I didn’t get my mail ballot until two days after the election. I spent a large part of election day hunting down where I could vote and then voting. Election day is Tuesday but I will be chewing out the Pima County Board of Supervisors and then attending the Libertarian Party meeting so I will have to vote early. I prefer voting early to voting by mail as there is more security in voting early but voting at a precinct is even better. If I send my ballot by mail, I will not find out until too late that my ballot was not received and thus my vote did not get counted.


October 18, 2016

October 17, 2016

Posted in Personal tagged , , , , , at 1:04 am by gruundehn

Another bad night for sleeping. I should never have talked about how well I was sleeping last week. Presuming, of course, that there is some sort of cosmic relationship between the two.

My Nook e-reader is still frozen and nothing I have done yet has gotten it unfrozen. I am trying one last thing, I am draining the battery in hopes that when it gets so low it will unfreeze since the power will not be enough to keep whatever is causing the freeze working.

I got some writing done during the early hours of this morning instead of after 9AM as usual. I will get no writing done tomorrow as I chew out the Pima County government in the morning, get one or more videos done in the afternoon and the evening will be taken up with the Libertarian Party monthly meeting. Wednesday, being a payday, I will be running around getting various things, like grocery shopping, done; so Thursday will be my return to writing unless I get some done in the wee hours of the morning while nothing else is available. That may be my writing pattern from now on.

I am getting old, remember I turned 67 last Friday, and it seems that whatever breaks down in my body happens on the left side. Except for the breakdowns that happen to all my body like my diabetes and accidents like breaking my right arm. But today I had a few moments of weakness in my left leg. I almost couldn’t stand and walking was a test of not falling over. It is gone now but I wonder what is going to break or malfunction next. Science needs to find a way to maintain our bodies easily and safely so that we can grow old without all the aches and pains.

I just got a new copy of a reference book I need for my YouTube videos, which is why I expect to get a video done tomorrow afternoon. I have an older copy around somewhere but I do not know where. My apartment is too cluttered and messy for me to find anything with ease. Unless, of course, I use it a lot or keep it in a specific and known place, like my glasses. I hate throwing things, especially books, away and thus the accumulation. I have books and videos that I have yet to read or watch as the case may be, or books that I haven’t read in decades but I keep them around. I have videos and books that I do not like but I haven’t gotten rid of yet. The more stuff accumulates, the harder it is to start in throwing it away.

Another reason that I have so much stuff is that I am kind of interested in almost everything so I buy books on many different subjects, read them once (if that much) and set them aside and never look at them again, or if I do it is so rarely that I might as well not have the book. I have to reign in my wandering focus and focus on just a few subjects. But even then the subjects are broad enough to build my book collection back up to unmanageable levels.

August 13, 2016

August 12, 2016

Posted in Personal tagged , , , at 12:17 am by gruundehn

I just finished writing a nice post and had to trash it. I wasn’t writing a post but a new page. I have to pay better attention to what I am doing.

So, I posted another chapter in DREADNOUGHT yesterday. I don’t like having to transcribe m writing to the blog to post it, I wish there was a way that I could just transfer my documents to the blog. But, as far as I know, there is none so I transcribe. I take a break every few paragraphs and watch YouTube videos as a relaxer. I like the channel on Magic Secrets Revealed. I saw the original series when it first aired and I enjoy watching them again. I am going to have to attend a live performance sometime soon as the videos have started my interest up again.

I still am not sleeping well. I get a few hours, then am awake for a few hours and then sleep again. This is disrupting my schedule. Today my second sleep period took me close to noon. I get some writing done during the early morning hours between the sleep periods but I don’t like what I have done and usually redo it. Not just rewriting but redoing. I didn’t write last night and just did the non-writing stuff like check email and visit the web comics I enjoy and so forth. I have a CPAC machine that I am suppose to use and I should start using it again. I stopped because of illness and just never got around to starting it again. Maybe using it will help my sleep.

I did work this afternoon on a new character. I mentioned that on Saturdays we are going to alternate campaigns between Shadowrun and D&D 5e. The character I worked on is for the D&D 5e campaign. I have been invited to join in a D&D 3.5e campaign during the week. I am interested and I definitely like the D&D 3.5e rules. But I have been thinking about this. Trying to keep three different rule sets current in my mind may be more than my brain can take. Plus, it has been a while since playing D&D 3.5e. I will have to think further on this.

I am sticking with my no cola attempt. I don’t feel any different but who knows. I do wonder why all the things that are enjoyable are in some way bad for us. It wouldn’t be a campaign to stop us from having fun would it? I remember reading several years ago an article about the psychology of authoritarian types and that they rare like people having fun as it was harder to control people having fun than people being miserable, which is why I wonder.

August 8, 2016

12th Sunday after Pentecost, 2016

Posted in Personal tagged , , , , at 1:34 am by gruundehn

I don’t sleep well anymore it seems. I take sleeping pills when it gets too bad but I never take them more than two days in a row. Last night was a night I didn’t take a sleeping pill and I had a horrible night. I went to bed around 8:30 PM and slept until around 12:30 AM and could not get back to sleep until close to 5 AM. Once back to sleep I slept until 11:30 AM roughly, totally missing church. This is happening more and more and I hate it. I see a doctor on the 25th and I have a host of problems I want to bring up. At 66 years of age, I turn 67 in a few weeks, I cannot expect to have perfect health but this is getting ridiculous.

Football season is starting and I am happy for that. I enjoy football, I used to play in high school, and now I am limited to watching. As I have said, I am a Cincinnati Bengals fan and look forward to their games. Football is a game of deception, counter-deception and teamwork and is highly enjoyable for those reasons, at least for me.

Making a daily post limits what I say about the past week here on Sunday nights but that’s OK I guess. I live a pretty boring life and I like it that way. I had enough excitement when I was on active duty. Getting shot at once was more than enough for me. And it wasn’t even the enemy that shot at me, and if I had been hit or killed, it would have been classified as an accident. I still get nightmares, thankfully not as often anymore, about the incident.

It has been raining a lot recently here in Tucson. Which may not seem like news but remember, Tucson is in a desert. So far this year we are close to an inch and a half above average and when the annual average is twelve inches, being that much ahead at this point is a good thing. When I was first stationed here in the early 1970s during the summer rainy season the storms were almost like clockwork. Around two to four times a week it would get hot enough so that the heat rising would start a thunderstorm around 1 PM and the storm would last about two hours, dropping the temperature a good twenty degrees or so. Now there is no regularity in when the storms happen or how long that they last, but at least this year, we are getting a good rainy season. What has made the recent stormy period hard to live with is that the humidity has been high, relative to normal for Tucson, and while the storms have brought a lot of rain, the storms haven’t been often enough to reduce the humidity as often as would make it comfortable. If I wanted high humidity, I’d move back to Indianapolis.

If you wish to do so, please visit and get the prayer list from the Sunday bulletin and pray for those in need. I also ask that you pray for the millions of people killed, driven from their homes or otherwise persecuted by Muslims throughout the world.

July 11, 2016

8th Sunday after Pentecost, 2016

Posted in Personal tagged , , , , , at 2:56 am by gruundehn

Technology is wonderful, until it isn’t. I enjoy working with my computers, playing games, surfing the internet and so forth. My list of favorite sites was pretty long. Yes, I said “was” since the latest update to Windows 10 ruined my favorites list. I have two computers, both with Windows 10. One I recently bought and it came with Windows 10 and the other is older and originally came with Windows 8, which got upgraded to 8.1 and then 10. Both just downloaded and installed an upgrade to Windows 10 and my favorites list is missing a lot of entries and the entries remaining are scrambled. This happened yesterday and I have been working to organize the entries back to alphabetical order but files are mixed with folders and very little is in proper order. Plus, a huge number of entries are missing. I sent a feedback to Microsoft but I doubt that they will reply to me since the webpage specifically stated that I should not expect a reply. The computer I am using here is the old one and has Microsoft Explorer as well as Microsoft Edge and the favorites file in Explorer is not as badly damaged as the one in Edge, which helps a bit.

I am still not sleeping properly. I had one night where I got about eight hours but normally it is anywhere from three to five hours. Last night I went to bed about 9:30 PM, got to sleep about 10 PM and woke up about 2:30 AM. I got back to sleep about 5 AM and slept until 10 AM. My blood sugar measurements have been dancing around like crazy and my weight bounces around as well, just not as bad. With my sleeping problems I wonder if there is something seriously wrong. I had been thinking that maybe I am having thyroid problems as low thyroid seems to fit the symptoms but medical information on the internet, even WebMD, is not diagnostic, just suggestive. I see my doctor later this month and I hope that he, or she – it is a new doctor and I don’t know who it is, can figure out what is wrong.

I have a problem with the news media nowadays. No, I am not going to talk bias but coverage. With the ability to gather information from around the world almost instantly local news and events lose out. Thirty years ago events in Europe would not be covered here in Tucson unless those events were extremely notable such as Brexit. Most of the news coverage would be local news and events as those events would normally have a more direct impact on the lives of Tucsonans. Now, the one newspaper that gave more coverage to local news is no more and the TV stations put national and international news into the local broadcast depriving me of local news. Now, I realize that the news media need advertising money in order to survive but they do over cover the sensational. At least, that is my opinion. Which may be why the traditional news media are losing ground to the youngsters on the internet. Plus, I remember reading something a year or two ago that most young people were getting their news from THE DAILY SHOW and similar comedy shows. I want my local news and I want an informed electorate; unfortunately, that seems too much to ask for.

I am still posting ENTRANCE EXAMINATION on my other blog, but I am almost finished with that novel. I would like some feedback on my writing style and ability but no one has commented so far. I get the occasional notice that someone likes a chapter and I think there are a few people following the story but no one has commented yet. People have stopped commenting on this blog as well  For all I am getting out of this effort, I might as well just shut down and destroy all the posts. I am not planning on doing that, at least not yet.

I still haven’t installed my new printer so if you wish to do so, please visit and find the latest prayer list, part of the weekly bulletin.

July 4, 2016

7th Sunday after Pentecost, 2016

Posted in Personal tagged , , at 9:32 am by gruundehn

I am actually posting early on the morning of Monday instead of the evening of Sunday as I was busy with various things such as grocery shopping last evening and I just didn’t get to writing a post last night.

I am still having trouble sleeping. As an example, I went to bed around 9:30 last night and woke about 1:30 this morning and haven’t been able to go back to sleep yet and if today follows previous nights, I won’t get back to sleep and the four hours is all I will get. I am getting tired of being tired all day. I don’t want to take naps, although I do, as naps might disrupt my ability to sleep the night through. I see my doctor later this month and this is another thing to bring up. I wish I didn’t have these health problems. And yes, I understand that there are a lot of people whose health problems are considerably worse than mine. I don’t want their problems and I wish mine would go away.

As part of the Sunday service I carried the American Flag at church. I bought a new pair of shoes because the shoes I normally wear on Sunday do not allow me to turn easily as they have textured soles. My new shoes are patent leather and look nice plus they are leather soled so I can turn in them better. However, they are new and patent leather, which means that they are stiff. So, my feet were hurting by the end of the service and when I got home and took them off I noticed that the sock on my left foot had a pinkish heel where the heel had been rubbed raw by the heel of the shoe. I think I will donate these shoes and buy a pair in a wider width. If I work the shoes I think I will crack the patent leather. I never wore patent leather shoes before, when I was on active duty I wore boots all the time as I was always in fatigues.

Once again I refer you to if you wish to pray the prayer list I normally post here as I have yet to install the new printer. The prayer list in part of the Sunday bulletin. I also ask that you pray for the millions of people who have been killed, driven from their homelands or otherwise persecuted by Muslims throughout the world.