March 30, 2017
I did not leave my apartment today except to check mail, do a bit of laundry, and get some soda. All day I have just sat around and tried to work past the roadblock I have on HIGH TREASON and failed. I know where I want the story to go, but it is the next page that is the killer. I forget which writer is credited with saying “Writing is staring at a blank sheet of paper until you sweat blood.” or something similar. I am horrible with quotes. Except the two sayings my Father taught me: 1) Unless you honestly look at both sides of an issue, you don’t have an opinion, you are a parrot; and 2) If your refrigerator is broken, changing the tires on your car won’t fix it. My Father was a wise man.
The manager of my apartment complex is coming by tomorrow to check the apartment for needed preventative maintenance and I am still, after all these weeks, unpacking and putting stuff away. Living alone slows down a lot of stuff I need to do because there is always too much stuff that needs to get done and that slows everything down. Plus, I am, for some reason, worried that I am going to have a serious hypoglycemia attack tomorrow morning. Why, I do not know. I have never felt this way before, hypoglycemia has always surprised me and hit me without warning or premonition.
My main computer is five years old and the hard drive is starting to make noise when starting up. So, even though I do not like the idea, I am going to have to get the latest version of Microsoft Office and install it on my secondary computer and then transfer all my files to that computer, which will become my primary computer. I have tried, in the past, to transfer files and use Open Office but the files get corrupted too often so that is now off the table forever. Office 2016 cost about $115+ and I will have to wait on other purchases to pay for this.
March 29, 2017
Once again the VA messed over my medications. I have a prescription for simvastatin and I should have had it refilled last month but although the VA says it was sent out, I never got it. Plus another prescription, this time for insulin needles, expired because it had not been renewed at my last doctor’s appointment. This is the second prescription that has expired for that reason this year; the other was for blood glucose test strips. By and large I get good care at the VA except for my medications being messed over. Doing this required a trip to the VA hospital here is Tucson. That trip to the VA was hours spent on an issue that should not have needed it.
I have done no writing this week, as yet. I cannot get anything going on HIGH TREASON. I have less than half written, but I have hit a wall and nothing comes to me when I think about it. I have almost decided to shift to one of the other novels I have partially done and set HIGH TREASON aside for a couple of weeks. Both MAGIC IN THE MONASETRY and THE GOD’S TALE are waiting and I could start in on either for a couple of weeks. I could even start the fourteen novel series HOUSE FOURTEEN (working series title). I have other novels in my mind such as EMPTY EARTH but I am not sure I want to start on them until some of what I have already started is finished. For years I tried to get all of my writing going at the same time, each day I decided what novel I was going to work on that day; but, I stopped that as I spent more time deciding what to work on than I did writing. I do not want to start that up again, or anything similar.
The weather here is changing enough so that everything hurts. As I write this, my right arm is hurting something not quite fierce but still strong. My knees and my left ankle have been acting up all week. It hurts to change position, (to stand, to sit, to lie down, to get out of bed) but staying in one position, either standing or lying doesn’t bother me much. It is a shame that to live, especially living alone, requires moving about.
March 26, 2017
Posting on a Sunday because there is no TTRPG today. The person who would be running it is attending a memorial service for his grandmother who died just a few days ago. I never met her so I cannot say anything else about her.
I cracked about feeling like Lilly Von Stupp in BLAZING SADDLES quite a few times this morning – you know, the line she says at the end of her song, “Everything below the waist is kaput.” I do feel that way a bit as everything, the joints at least, below the waist hurts. Sitting down or standing up hurts, walking hurts, even standing hurts after a short while. What doesn’t hurt is sitting, once I am down, or laying, again once I am down.
Just a few more things to buy to be comfortable in my apartment, I don’t need a lot. I have to start saving for travelling to the Libertarian Party National Convention next year. It will be held in New Orleans which should be easy to get to and the convention should be interesting.
I am ready to do another YouTube video, I have what I am going to say down and I just need to record and post it. So many things I need to do and I get so few of them done on time. I just procrastinate too much.
Skipped a couple of days, didn’t mean to but it happened. I may never get steady on posting daily but I do try.
Played TTRPG yesterday, Star Wars in the D&D system. As I have mentioned before, I am growing to hate D&D regardless of version. I have been playing D&D, in one form or another, since 1977 and I am tired of it. I do not like Star Wars as an RPG because I watched the first 6 films and I believe that the story is finished. For that reason I have not watched any movie after RETURN OF THE JEDI and won’t. However, I enjoy the people I game with and so far that outweighs the annoyance of D&D and Star Wars, but not for much longer.
Saw the doctor Thursday about my feet. I mentioned that my left foot gets sore and she prescribed a brace. I wore it home and at home but took it off after a while because it made things worse.
I splurged for breakfast yesterday. I treated myself to a breakfast at IHOP (International House of Pancakes) but could not finish it. Years ago I was told by a dietician friend of mine that if I splurge one or twice a month then the chance that I break my diet is lessened. Sounds good to me, it does make sense. But the breakfast I got was just too sweet. I had wanted a good breakfast with pancakes but the breakfast I wanted came with cinnamon French toast and that was just too much. My blood sugar was low when I got up and so I wanted something a bit more sugary than normal but this was just too much. They did do the eggs well though. Next month I am going to either go elsewhere or eat something else given how much I left on the plate of the French toast.
March 23, 2017
I am not doing a good job of posting every day. I almost didn’t post today due my being so tired all day. I have done nothing all day of any significance except stay in bed. I do not know the reason I am so tired, I know I have anemia and I am taking iron pills for it but this tiredness continues on in Whatspite of the medicine.
I did something unusual yesterday, when I attended the Board of Supervisors meeting, I complemented them. They passed a resolution against the border wall and the cross-border taxes that will be used to pay for it. I am opposed to the wall as it is not going to work and thus I am especially opposed to the taxes to pay for it. Those taxes will hurt the local economy more than anyone sneaking across the border might do.
What else can I say? Talking about laying in bed is not interesting. I cannot invent events that did not happen, I want to keep this from becoming fiction. My other site is where I am posting fiction.
March 21, 2017
I am over the crud. It was indeed a 3-day version and it ran its course.
I have not done any writing for several days now. It isn’t that I do not want to write, but the crud has kept me away from writing. So, now I can get back to writing. However, not tomorrow as I have meetings most of the day. The Board of Supervisors in the morning and the Libertarian Party in the evening. I am going to surprise the Board of Supervisors, usually I chew them out but tomorrow I am going to praise them. President Trump is proposing a border commerce tax to pay for his useless wall and the BOS is going to resolve to oppose that tax and I am going to praise them for opposing it.
I am ready to start posting GENERATION UPON GENERATION starting Thursday. Yes, I have intended to start the posting last week and the week before but this time for sure.
I am still unpacking my TTRPG miniatures and setting them up ready for painting. Payday I am probably going to get outdoor furniture and start painting in my backyard. I just realized that this is the first yard I have had since 1975 when the mobile home I had then burned down.
Saturday is 25 years since my mother died. Later this year, December, it will be 40 years since my father died. June will be 2 years since my eldest brother died. I feel awful. I have no idea when various aunts and uncles died, I have more or less lost track of my family, and I have no idea if any cousins have passed on either. I really need to reconnect with family.
March 19, 2017
So it has been a few days since I posted last. Sorry, I’ve been sick with the crud. I could say more but I don’t want anyone reading this upchucking from the description of what I have been upchucking and expelling out the other end.
Summer is coming. Here in Arizona we have five seasons: 1) Winter 2) Spring 3) Fire 4) Rain 5) Autumn. Of those, Autumn is my favorite. Winter follows Autumn and I can wear more to combat the cold than I can take off to combat the heat. But Spring is a nice season also, in spite of what is coming.
I have had bees in my apartment, not a hive but just a couple of individual bees. They are dead now, and I never got stung. Which is good because I heard, and saw, them at night as I was trying to get to sleep.
I am still unpacking stuff even though I have been here a month or more. I am sorting out TTRPG miniatures now and getting them ready to paint. A nice thing about this apartment is that I have a backyard and do not have to bother people when I paint miniatures. I do have to get some outdoor furniture though, but that shouldn’t be a problem, just a table and a chair or two.
One nice thing about this complex, which I have mentioned before, is that packages can be left with the front office; but the bad thing relating to that, which I have mentioned before, is that I rarely get notified about packages nor do most of the delivery services try the apartment first before leaving a package at the office. I mention this because a delivery service actually did just that today, knocked at my door and delivered a package here. Since the office is closed on Sunday, they had to or else come back tomorrow. Tomorrow I have to go pick up a package at the office that I discovered was there only by accident and too late to get yesterday.
I have to start posting GENERATION UPON GENERATION this Thursday. I have missed two weeks and shouldn’t miss a third. I do wish people would read and comment on my novels, I want the feedback in order to improve my writing.
March 15, 2017
I feel a bit of an idiot. I was expecting all day, indeed for several days now, to attend the monthly PCLP meeting tonight. But, today is the second Tuesday and not the third. The meeting is next week.
I did a lot of cleaning up and putting stuff away today. I now have a lot of clear space in the living room. I still have just the one chair so I sit in it when I work on my computer in the den and move it to watch TV or movies in the living room. Once I have enough cleaned up in the living room, I am getting some furniture for the living room. I am thinking getting just a few items and I do not want to spend a lot of money buying furniture I don’t need.
I hurt a lot, my knees are sore all the time and more so when I sit down or get up. My left ankle is always sore, especially when I walk. I do not like the aches and pains of getting old. If I had a wish, I would wish for good health before wealth.
I get my Social Security monthly payment tomorrow so I will be running all over town getting stuff purchased such as groceries. Plus, tomorrow evening I am meeting with my friends for some TTRPG, Star Wars. I enjoy gaming with them but the D&D system is getting to me. I have complained about this before, but here it is again: I do not want to ever play D&D (any version) ever again. I have played D&D, various versions, since 1977 and I want no more. For a couple of years I stayed away from D&D while my friends gamed but other than that, it has been constant and I have had enough.
March 13, 2017
Sunday afternoon and I am tired. I took a nap earlier but I am still tired. I have been diagnosed as anemic and I am taking iron for it but I am still tired.
I am posting this while taking a break from THE FLASH. I have tried to watch the first two seasons, which I have on Blu-Ray, but never finish. It is the same with the ARROW. And these are two superheroes I enjoy. I never watched any of the Superman TV shows and only one movie. Batman is one that I have watched a lot, that and the sequel animated series BATMAN BEYOND.
I am going through hypoglycemia right now. I have tested my blood sugar level and it is very low. So, I am eating what I can in order to get it up before I take my insulin and other meds. I hate diabetes. What I am eating is pretty much the last food I have in the apartment, I have to go shopping tomorrow. But I can’t use up all my money even though I get Social Security on Wednesday. Tuesday night I have a meeting at a restaurant and I do not like not buying something while there. So, I have to have something to eat tomorrow and Tuesday but not run myself out of money for Tuesday night.
Still putting stuff away after the move. I cannot find one shirt I do not want to have lost. I will have to buy a new one and all the patches that need to go on it and get the patches sewed on before Memorial Day. I want to replace the military ribbons that were on the missing shirt as well, but that might have to wait until after Memorial Day. Luckily, I have a list of the ribbons so I can get them replaced easily.
March 11, 2017
No game tomorrow. As much as I do not like D&D or horror, I do miss the chance to game with my friends. So, after church, I will have to fill my time with something, probably watching Season 1 of The Flash or maybe Arrow. I like both shows. I have always liked the FLASH comic books because DC did more with that “one-trick pony” than should be possible. I also liked the Green Arrow because, like Batman, he always had the right tool at his fingertips, and never ran out. Superman was never a character I liked, he was just too much. DC had to stretch in order to give him vulnerabilities and there was no fun in that for me.
I spent most of today just putting stuff away. I still have a lot to store away but less than before today. I am worried about so items that I seem to have lost when I moved out of my old apartment. I still have bags to search so I hope that I come across them. I did not plan ahead and I am now paying the price.
I can start posting chapters of GENERATION UPON GENERATION this coming Thursday. I have 14 chapters so that means in three and a half months I have to have HIGH TREASON ready to post. I do wish that someone would start reading and commenting on what I write. The commenting part being important since I want feedback so I can improve.