July 8, 2019

July 8, 2019

Posted in Personal tagged at 9:55 pm by gruundehn

It has been a long time since my last post. I am not well, thankfully I see the doctor tomorrow. I think this is all due to reactions to a medicine I take. I have what feels like an air bubble in my gut that does not move away. It gets stronger and weaker but it is always there. When it gets strong enough, I go through a period of painful farts. I keep a wet cloth next to the toilet and I use it to try to sooth my rear after a fart. This air bubble, if that is what it is, also interferes with my sleep as the bubble, while not painful, hurts enough to wake me or keep me from sleeping. This has been going on for a couple of weeks in its present form, my bowel problem has evolved since I changed from regular Metformin to coated Metformin.

Needles to say that I have gotten no writing done over the last two weeks and today I got almost none done due to having to break off and deal with my bowel problem. I hate not being well. I am going to go lie down and try to relax and rest.

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June 26, 2019

Heaven

Posted in Religion tagged at 10:50 pm by gruundehn

All Christians, regardless of type (Arian, Coptic, Nestorian, Orthodox, Catholic, Protestant or whatever), believe the Jesus is the most important human in all of time and space. It does not matter if you believe that Jesus is the pre-existing Word of God, or if he became the Messiah at the Baptism of John, the Resurrection, or the Ascension, What Jesus taught, what Jesus did, what Jesus stood for and stands for is crucial. Jesus is the most important human in all of time and space.

If you believe that everyone goes to Heaven, you repudiate that idea. Jesus is meaningless in your belief since it does not matter if Jesus ever existed since everyone goes to Heaven. What Jesus taught, what Jesus did, what Jesus stood for and stands for make no difference since everyone goes to Heaven. Therefore it is all meaningless and valueless.

But, you might say, everyone going to Heaven is a sign of God’s love. No, at best it is a sign of indifference on God’s part. In this belief system, God does not care what you do, who you abuse, or anything else. In this belief system, God hates Jesus as God has sent Jesus on a meaningless mission, knowing it is meaningless, and does not care about the pain and suffering the Jesus goes through. Christians have thee Commandments: Love God, Love your Neighbor as yourself and Love one another as God loves you. If everyone goes to Heaven, God does not care about the rules set for our conduct, God ignores all the abuse and hate we can pile on one another. The rulebreakers get better treatment than the rule keepers. After all, they get away with murder as it were.

So, do I believe that only Christians go to Heaven, or maybe only Anglicans, or even more restrictive? If that is the only other alternative, I find it just slightly less reprehensible. But only less slightly. What I believe is that when we die, we are given a test and if we ass that test, we go to Heaven. Anyone can pass it, but Christians have a better chance. If you fail the test, you get recycled, get sent somewhere else, or get destroyed. All depending upon how well you do on the test.

June 23, 2019

June 23, 2019

Posted in Personal tagged , at 10:33 pm by gruundehn

I have not posted anything for a while now, mainly due to my not feeling well. I turn seventy years old in a couple of months (October) and everything is breaking down. In the last two weeks I have had three totally sleepless nights. I do not think I have had that many over the previous ten years.
All last week I wrote maybe a single paragraph on the mage story, the story where I kill the primary character on page one and go from there. I know what comes next but I haven’t decided where the story is going to go. Usually, I have the beginning and end of a story first and fill in the middle as needed. With this story, I know what the story is going to be, a quest story, but what the quest is going to be and how it gets resolved are still unknown.
I have two posts that I want to make, that are not journal entries, but they both need work and I haven’t gotten them polished enough. A journal entry, like this one, I am happy to just write it. But these two, because they are serious thoughts on serious subjects, require more work.

June 18, 2019

June 18, 2019

Posted in Personal tagged , at 10:04 pm by gruundehn

Almost two weeks since my last post. My sole excuse is that I have been ill. Not sick – a full blown sickness – but ill. I doubt that I have a disease, but I sure have not felt well.
Yesterday and today, I got some writing done. Quite a bit actually, in site of having to spend a lot of tie on the toilet. If I can get back to normal feeling, I should be back on track to getting a lot churned out. I still need to finish editing the centaur story, but that is mostly done so there isn’t much left to do. Maybe I can get an agent and get it published. That would be nice. Self-publishing on Kindle has not worked for me.
Summer is here, yes I knw summer does not properly arrive until the 21st, but the weather is here and who cares about the calendar?

June 6, 2019

June 6, 2019

Posted in Personal tagged , , at 10:21 pm by gruundehn

Seventy-five years ago the Western Allies landed at Normandy and started the end of Nazi Germany. Yes, the main fighting was on the Eastern Front, but the fighting in Italy and the invasion of France were the straws that broke the back so to speak.

I spent all day today working on a letter for the Pima County Libertarian Party. Or rather, a letter that I am going to send to the members of the various Precinct Committees. One problem I have with the letter is I do not want to come across as whining but still show how dire the situation is.

I am still in ill health. I am not sick, not really, but I just feel “not right”. I barely got to sleep last night, I was afraid that I was going to have another sleepless night – the third in a week. I did get to sleep without taking a sleeping pill but I am still worried.I see my primary doctor sometime soon and I hope that he can put me on the right track to better sleep.

June 5, 2019

June 5, 2019

Posted in Personal tagged , , at 10:14 pm by gruundehn

Another day wherein I got very little done. Travelling around by the bus system takes forever, especially if transfers between routes are involved. For a one hour task, I schedule three hours to do it. Whatever the task, I expect it to take an additional two hours. And that takes a lot out of any day I have to travel around Tucson.
One thing I have spent a lot of time on today is what I am going to do about the Pima County Libertarian Party. I have not been a great Chair, but in my defense, I have had almost no co-operation. Nobody wants to do anything. I am almost ready to give up. Almost.
My health is still in flux, I am going through around a single roll of toilet paper a day. I will et anyone who reads this decide what I mean. Sometime soon I have an appointment with my primary care doctor at the VA and I hope something can be done to reduce this problem and a couple of other small items that are popping up as well. I am sixty-nine years old, and I did not expect to live this long, so I should not be surprised at how much is falling apart. I am just tired of it all and wish I could somehow eliminate the problems so I can get on with my life.

June 3, 2019

June 3, 2019

Posted in Personal tagged , , at 10:41 pm by gruundehn

I have no idea why, but I spent all day worn out. I slept well, as much as I could expect, so I have no clue as to why I did not have any energy.

The homeless guy showed up, I was expecting him early in the morning before the heat but he showed up early in the afternoon. He has worked hard and is presently setting up an exercise bike I have never gotten around to getting set up before. I think I will ask him to help with my new television. It is a large one, and my arm and shoulder make it hard for me to install it. He is a good worker and I believe I will give him $40 for his work.

I have been reading the Harry Potter series. Yes, I know the series is intended for young adults, but there is no law against it and I am curious. I do not think the writing is great, but the stories are engaging. I do not think Tolkien was a great writer either. I am in the middle of THE HALF-BLOOD PRINCE so there is just the last book after this.

I need to get some more of the Sister Fidelma series. I have the first twenty books and there are another four or five I think. I also like the continuation of the Nero Wolfe series and am looking forward to new ones there. I like strange detectives.

June 2, 2019

June 2, 2019

Posted in Personal tagged , , at 11:59 pm by gruundehn

Another lazy Sunday. Church this morning was not fun, the rector is someone whose politics I do not like and who has a horrible understanding of economics. His theology is also flawed as far as I am concerned. So, why keep going to that church? The Sacraments come from God, not the priest. The priest will leave at some point, and with luck the new priest will be more sensible by my standards.

One thing I did do that I liked doing is I hired a homeless person to come and pull up the weeds in my backyard. He did not want to set a price, so I resume I will pay him $20 for what will probably be less than an hour of work. The guy attends church and I overheard him bragging about pulling weeds, so I hired him. Sometime this week is when the weeds get pulled. Tuesday will be out as I will be chewing out the Pima County Board of Supervisors. And afternoons are out as he does not want to work in the heat. I do not blame him, it is finally getting hot here in Tucson.

I sent the centaur story off to a friend, he had been at Grace-St. Paul’s in the choir but moved back to Ohio. He is also a writer, and we had often talked about our stories. It will be interesting to get his take on what I wrote. He is doing a science-fiction series and has several books written but nothing published yet. I am going to finish proofreading the centaur story and see about getting it published the old-fashioned way. Plus, I hope to get several books about the mage who died on the first page of the book.

May 30, 2019

May 30, 2019

Posted in Personal tagged , , , at 10:16 pm by gruundehn

This would have been Memorial Day except that Congress changed it years ago so that it always falls on a Monday. What is to come, Independence Day the first Monday in July? Thanksgiving the forth Friday in November? Eliminate the idea of every holiday needs to be either Monday or Friday.
I had a doctor’s appointment this morning and got my feet checked out. Sometime in the next few weeks, I will have to check to be sure, I have my regular follow-up with my main doctor. The VA medical center here is pretty good, thanks be that I do not have to deal with some of the more incompetent medical centers such as Phoenix or (if I remember correctly) Albany. Anyway, even though the temperature was fairly low for this time of year, I was worn out by the time I got home. The slight heat that did exist just seemed to drain me. So I napped for about an hour. I nap a lot anymore.
I want to get more writing done but between one thing and another, I don’t. The closest I come is thinking a scene through and getting it worked out while doing something else, usually napping it seems. I used to get a lot more writing done, not that the work I did still exists, but everything is slowing down and getting done as molasses if February speed.
The one TTRPG campaign is almost over and the Gamemaster was preparing for a new campaign, and a different system, when one player decided that he was not going to play that system. And I can understand why. The game system is closely tied to religion and this player, a devout Christian, expected that the Gamemaster, a raging atheist, would cause problems that would be offensive to the player. I can see his point, and I was expecting something similar but I did not want to be the one to say “NO” as I have done that in the past and I do not want to be doing that consistently.

May 28, 2019

May 28, 2019

Posted in Personal tagged , , at 10:37 pm by gruundehn

This has been an unusual year, so far, as far as the local weather is concerned. Here it is the end of May and the temperature has yet to reach 100 degrees. I am not sure, but I think that reaching 100 degrees this late has never happened before, at least in the last century or so. At night I would normally be sleeping without covers but I still use the blanket because of the chill. Weird.
I have run the Grammarly program through the centaur story three times but have yet to finish any grammar check. Ninety-three thousand words takes a long time to check and make corrections. I did do some writing in the dead mage story, not a lot but enough to get a scene out of my head. I did not get more done as I had too much else to do and I needed to finish some of that work as well.
One of the things I need to do involves the Pima County Libertarian Party and the website for it. I am stymied because there is no one else to get the site up and running and I need some data from the Party Treasurer and she is not responding to my emails. So, all I can do is continue to try and get the information I need. Once I get the information, I will probably end up dropping out of one of my TTRPG campaigns, the weekday one, to devote a lot of time to getting the website going.

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